Up for MJ
I don't want to draw a line between my standard and my real deal. Unconsciously, the thought that they're different became a mere statement of how I should be. And, sometimes I hate myself because I just turned out to be the person querying, am I happy being so wise or envious being a so damn brain user? A crasher of her own aspirations that were thought as in a sense invaluable for her to still attend to..
